BEING ME By Valerie Grimes

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By Valerie Grimes

TO BE ME.
IS TO BE REAL, OPEN AND HONEST
YET! IT SEEMS TO BE, SO HARD TO DO.
MY MIND SAYS ONE THING.
MY HEART FEELS ANOTHER.
THE UNBALANCE OF NOT BEING ME..!
WHEN I NEED TO BE..
I SAY WHAT I WANT INSIDE, BUT NO ONE HEARS ME..
TO SEE THE PAIN, I MUST LET GO.. GAIN NO RESPECT,
SO I MUST REMAIN SANE.
MY MIND IS FULL OF EXPRESSIONS, GOING THROUGH TRANSITIONS.
YET SOMEHOW I REMAIN CALM. BEING AT PEACE WITHIN.
LETTING GOD!

Why I wrote this poem. I HEARD A SISTER IN CHURCH, GIVING HER STORY ON HOW GOD FORGAVE HER. SHE HELD ON A PAIN FOR EIGHT YEARS, BUT IT WAS TOO PAINFUL TO KEEP. SO SHE HAD TO LET HER HUSBAND KNOW ABOUT IT. HE FORGAVE HER. NOW SHE CAN FORGIVE HERSELF. I HAD TO DO THE SAME THING. MY HEART WAS FULL OF EMOTIONS. HOW CAN I DO GOD'S WORK KNOWING I TO HAD UNFORGIVENESS TO LET GO? SO THAT MOMENT, IN CHURCH I TURNED TO MY SISTER, AND SAID, "I FORGIVE YOU. I AM SO SORRY, WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES, I LOVE YOU SIS, I AM SO SORRY, I FORGIVE YOU." NOW WE ARE A TEAM. I MUST LEARN TO LET GO AND LET GOD. NOW I AM ON THE PATH TO WALK WITH HIM. I, TOO, FORGIVE MYSELF. I DO FORGIVE THEM THAT HURT ME. I FORGIVE AND IT FEELS SO GOOD BECAUSE IT IS REAL. GOD IS REAL. NOT PHONY. REAL. WE BELIEVE. WE TRUST. WE HAVE HOPE. WHERE THERE IS LOVE, GOD IS THERE TOO. HE IS EVERYWHERE. GOD BLESS.

© 2005 Valerie Grimes, Fayetteville, NC